Life is hard, isn’t it? Many times things go wrong, like Murphy’s Law, and sometimes we just lose ourselves in what we could have and should have done.
Now, I’m writing this because I have been challenged in this life, to become a better person than I was. I have a past, who doesn’t? It’s got it’s pretty parts and it’s dark parts too. What I’m trying to say is, don’t get too caught up in your [or anyone else’s] past. We all have them, but what matters is what we are doing about it, what we are learning and changing today. Because, honestly, today is all we have.
Recently I have been seeking spiritual guidance. I
go to this place called El Centro, where mediums speak of spiritualism and the practices we need to incorporate into our every day lives. Then they give you these passes to take away the negative energy from your own spirit. It sounds like a bunch of mumbo jumbo, but it’s not.
Last night began my journey of spiritual healing. I went to this place, despite my anxiety, despite wanting to hide and not bother, despite the fact that it was out of my way. I went because I want this. I want to be a better person and cleanse my soul and spirit of all the toxic and negative energy that has been collected over my 26 years of being on Earth.
The room was full of believers of the faith. I was alone, and yet, I wasn’t alone at all. But I’m not the mingling type, so I sat down in the back and I listened. Some of the teachings the mediums spoke about were: gratitude, balance, variety, patience, and the now.
We all say that we are thankful, but how often do we show it? When we pray, how often do we say thank you instead of just asking God (or whomever you pray to) for what we need or want? When someone holds the door open for us? When someone buys us a little treat? When someone gives you a nice compliment. When someone gives you constructive criticism? When someone helps you? How often do we say thank you and how often do we show our appreciation? Not much.
I am guilty to a fault. I always say please and thank you, but sometimes I forget to pray unless I need something. Sometimes I don’t show the people around me, the people who love and care about me, how grateful I am to have them in my life. We forget, so consumed by our lives and our daily problems. It’s time to change that, however. We need to realize and show our gratitude every and any way possible. When you pray, thank God for what you already have and he shall give you more. You have to believe as well. Believe in the power and the magic of sincerity and thank yous. Help your lover cook and clean up. Help your parents out. Help your neighbor, friends, family. There are so many ways to show gratitude.
Here are some things that I am grateful for:
- I am grateful to be alive
- I am grateful I have people around me that love me
- I am grateful for the strength to keep going
- I am grateful I have a job
- I am grateful for my father
- I am grateful for my mother
- I am grateful that I am able to learn and grow from my mistakes
- I am grateful I have a bed to sleep in and food to eat
- I am grateful that I can move, think, see, and hear.
What are you guys grateful for? Make a list. Keep it with you. Keep adding to that list.
As humans, we get so caught up in this thing called life. We get caught up in insignificant things that keep us from actually living to our full potential. Some people work too much and have no fun at all and others have too much fun and neglect their responsibilities. Some are so focused on themselves, they forget about those around them, while some suffocate those around them and don’t take care of themselves. It’s a vicious cycle that needs to stop. You need to balance out the things you want and need to do and have variety in your life. Don’t do the same thing over and over and expect different results.
I, unfortunately, was the one who neglected taking care of myself and suffocated those around me. I kept thinking I needed to be around someone to be complete, but oh how wrong I was. I needed to spend time with myself, something I feared doing because I didn’t want to be alone. Guess what, I ended up alone and by myself. It’s not as bad as it sounds because I am growing and learning to have variety and balance in my life and in the near future I will be better for it.
Patience isn’t exactly one of my many virtues, but I am learning to be patient and have faith in the process. I’m the type of person who likes instant result, who doesn’t? I want my acne cleanser to be instant. I want my fast-dry nail varnish to dry instantly. I want my depression and anxiety to go away instantly. We all know that life doesn’t work that way and thus why many of us give up.
I have given up a lot in the past, but obviously that hasn’t worked out well for me. I am struggling with many things in my life, but I am learning how to take care of myself and how to heal. The process is long and arduous, but it’s worth it.
When you don’t work on your patience, you tend to get derailed, you start to overthink, to worry. Nothing good comes from worrying and this I’ve learned the hard way. When you worry, you get stuck in the past, making yourself depressed or sick. How is this healthy for us? It isn’t and it’s not self-love either.
So let go, stop worrying, learn from your mistakes, have faith, and let life take its course, because when you have peace within your soul and spirit you open yourself up to the possibilities of the universe.
Right now. Not yesterday and not tomorrow, but now. Focus on what you are doing now. When you get caught up in the past, you hold yourself back. When you worry about the future, you forget to live. Remember, the past is over and gone, you can’t get it back and you can’t change it. The future doesn’t exist, so there is no use worrying over it. I know it’s cliche, but the words hold true: “Live today like there is no tomorrow.” Be the person you want to be right now. Do what you have to or want to do right now. Love yourself right now. Be thankful and show gratitude right now.
Life is happening now as I am writing this. But I feel alive. I am not wasting my now on the past or on my depression or negative thoughts and energy. No, I am taking the time to do what I love, writing. It is part of my healing process. I am also thankful that I have this knowledge that I can share with the world and hopefully help someone in need.
Be happy. Smile. You are alive!